Allysa blogs

Looking for direction and some sort of guidance.

Filling in the gap of the unfulfillable.

An impossible task thus far.

I go back and forth between what I think is right.

Blinded hope leaves me wondering why I bother.

Might it be that this time is different?

I want to fill a connection, to feel the embrace.

Left with an angry face, 

a loveless heart, 

and an empty hole in the pit of my belly.

Don't want to let go and I expect so much more.

Complete withdrawal is perhaps the only answer?

Will I let my heart continue to bleed more?

Pray for my sanity.

Somebody must have borrowed it but forgot to give it back.

Pray for it's safe return.