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Friday, December 11, 2009
--- many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves ; ------ regret for the past and fear for the future ---
the brocure
Heii felllass!!! I miss you so much! It has been a long long times since I haven't written a post. Did you'all miss me ?! =p Ok, no need to talk to much, because I've a lot of things to share with all of you guys =p
Ok, let's talk about [my] final test. It seems never done, seriously, it took so long! Started from 4th December until next 15th December [and yeah of course, after that, I'll be free! =p]. And how was my score ?! Umm, not bad, but not as good as before on 7/8th grade. Ya, my scores were decreased, ALL! Eventhough, if I can say, the questions are not as difficult as you thought before. And the scariest thing was, my friends could beat my scores. WTH For first, let me explain to you that I'm not a khaki girl, but in fact, from 7th-8th grade, I haven't beaten by anybody else, just me who could beat myself! -.- I think that's all because I was being lazier, always online, not studying bla bla bla. Ya, I realize now, that I must stop doing this all of this sh*t [omg, please, blogging isn't a sh*t baby!], and preparing myself to fight all of the test that I'll face soon, and of course, the scariest way, UNAS! Oh God, please, I have asked and consulted to my parents about taking tuition, but it doesn't seem worth, not for the transportation, not for the time, just worth for the money, and the most important thing, not for the things that I'll get from there. And ya, I just can't manage my time and myself well, so I'm sure it'll be messed up, all of it! Just think about it, I won't have any longer time for studying for the school's test, always 'kalang kabut' for the tuition, and yeah, in fact, that UNAS won't be the requirement for the graduation, the requirement will be all of my school's scores, from 7 until 9th grade. So, it means that I must increased my score at school well right ?! If not, I won't be in into Sinlui [or if I'm lucky to pass P1 test, and ya, I'll be there =p]. And I don't want people think about me, "Oh yeah, she's just any other 'textbook' smart girl." Please, that's pathetic! I don't want it happens to me, at all! I don't want people think that I just can do the textbook things, not the other things. That's insane! Please God, give me some strength to face all of this things and make myself better than before. Throw away all of my laziness, and start to think lil' bit for the future. That's all what I want.
Ok, I'm confused now. All of these things seem not real for me. That the fact was, I have a lot of friends, but I don't know who's my real friends are. Ok, start searching, just give me the way to find it. And the most fvcking thing was, there were 2 strange people, who were texting me and terrorize me, bla bla bla. I asked them where did/from who did they get my number, and they said, innocently "Ahh, I got your number from my friend." Who the hell is your fvcking friend ?! Tell him, DO NOT SPREAD MY NUMBER TO STRANGE PEOPLE, IF YOU LOST CONNECT WITH ME, JUST DELETED MY NUMBER, THAT'S ENOUGH TO MAKE MY HAPPY, NOT WITH GAVE YOUR FRIENDS MY NUMBER. That's sucks dude! I was really2 interrupting with that 2 stalk and freak guys. I just acting for this long, I want to trick you guys, you must know it, that I am not pleasure to be friends with you guys [that's not mean that I'm khaki or selfish or whatever!]. You must realize it ASAP! You're just a piece of sh*t that I'm playing right now. Don't count on me, you bast*rds! You jerk! I hate you guys all! Go away from my life, I don't need you, I just need my beloved friends that I know better than you guys, and hell yeah, I LOVE THEM, not you! Ok, if this condition last longer, I won't be bashful to buy a new number, and that's PRIVATE! Understood ?! -.-
I was really2 shocked today. Why ?! Today, my school just held a meeting with students' guardians to talked about UNAS and my school [WM] re-opened high school. So, why I shocked ?! First, THEY HAD BROCURE! OMG, WIDYA MERTI HAD A BROCURE! THAT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL THING THAT THEY EVER HAD! Eventhough just a flip brocure, that's ok, that's an improvement of my school man! And I'm proud of it! =p And second, when my mom was out from the new classroom for X grade of senior high school, she told me, "When the speakers was talking about the efectiveness of the students, he told a lot of things about you, that you're an active speakers, bla bla bla. And if you want to extension to WM SHS, you'll get a full scholarship for next one year." OMG, isn't that sucks ?! Ok, in fact, I just asked around three times, and ya, I was using english when I'm talking, and that was with broken grammar and vocab [like now I wrote on my blog =p], and I don't think if my questions were that great, as they were talking about to all of the guardians. It makes me ashamed you know ?! Not because I'm proud, I just shamed. OK. And truthfully, I won't let myself in to that senior high school. That's not mean that I am not regretful with my own school, but my willing is in into Sinlui or P1 that you'all know, they have plentier experiences, famous name, and ya, great facilities with guarantee of brighten future. That's what I want, because I need that X factor to be a surgeon or you can say first, a doctor. I can't just go to my 'beloved' school, with a full scholarship and an extra crowd, bla bla bla, and hell, for the university, I got NOTHING! ZERO! That's pathetic man! So, wish me luck for the high school test around January, ok ;)
Ok, let's talk about [my] final test. It seems never done, seriously, it took so long! Started from 4th December until next 15th December [and yeah of course, after that, I'll be free! =p]. And how was my score ?! Umm, not bad, but not as good as before on 7/8th grade. Ya, my scores were decreased, ALL! Eventhough, if I can say, the questions are not as difficult as you thought before. And the scariest thing was, my friends could beat my scores. WTH For first, let me explain to you that I'm not a khaki girl, but in fact, from 7th-8th grade, I haven't beaten by anybody else, just me who could beat myself! -.- I think that's all because I was being lazier, always online, not studying bla bla bla. Ya, I realize now, that I must stop doing this all of this sh*t [omg, please, blogging isn't a sh*t baby!], and preparing myself to fight all of the test that I'll face soon, and of course, the scariest way, UNAS! Oh God, please, I have asked and consulted to my parents about taking tuition, but it doesn't seem worth, not for the transportation, not for the time, just worth for the money, and the most important thing, not for the things that I'll get from there. And ya, I just can't manage my time and myself well, so I'm sure it'll be messed up, all of it! Just think about it, I won't have any longer time for studying for the school's test, always 'kalang kabut' for the tuition, and yeah, in fact, that UNAS won't be the requirement for the graduation, the requirement will be all of my school's scores, from 7 until 9th grade. So, it means that I must increased my score at school well right ?! If not, I won't be in into Sinlui [or if I'm lucky to pass P1 test, and ya, I'll be there =p]. And I don't want people think about me, "Oh yeah, she's just any other 'textbook' smart girl." Please, that's pathetic! I don't want it happens to me, at all! I don't want people think that I just can do the textbook things, not the other things. That's insane! Please God, give me some strength to face all of this things and make myself better than before. Throw away all of my laziness, and start to think lil' bit for the future. That's all what I want.
Ok, I'm confused now. All of these things seem not real for me. That the fact was, I have a lot of friends, but I don't know who's my real friends are. Ok, start searching, just give me the way to find it. And the most fvcking thing was, there were 2 strange people, who were texting me and terrorize me, bla bla bla. I asked them where did/from who did they get my number, and they said, innocently "Ahh, I got your number from my friend." Who the hell is your fvcking friend ?! Tell him, DO NOT SPREAD MY NUMBER TO STRANGE PEOPLE, IF YOU LOST CONNECT WITH ME, JUST DELETED MY NUMBER, THAT'S ENOUGH TO MAKE MY HAPPY, NOT WITH GAVE YOUR FRIENDS MY NUMBER. That's sucks dude! I was really2 interrupting with that 2 stalk and freak guys. I just acting for this long, I want to trick you guys, you must know it, that I am not pleasure to be friends with you guys [that's not mean that I'm khaki or selfish or whatever!]. You must realize it ASAP! You're just a piece of sh*t that I'm playing right now. Don't count on me, you bast*rds! You jerk! I hate you guys all! Go away from my life, I don't need you, I just need my beloved friends that I know better than you guys, and hell yeah, I LOVE THEM, not you! Ok, if this condition last longer, I won't be bashful to buy a new number, and that's PRIVATE! Understood ?! -.-
I was really2 shocked today. Why ?! Today, my school just held a meeting with students' guardians to talked about UNAS and my school [WM] re-opened high school. So, why I shocked ?! First, THEY HAD BROCURE! OMG, WIDYA MERTI HAD A BROCURE! THAT'S THE MOST WONDERFUL THING THAT THEY EVER HAD! Eventhough just a flip brocure, that's ok, that's an improvement of my school man! And I'm proud of it! =p And second, when my mom was out from the new classroom for X grade of senior high school, she told me, "When the speakers was talking about the efectiveness of the students, he told a lot of things about you, that you're an active speakers, bla bla bla. And if you want to extension to WM SHS, you'll get a full scholarship for next one year." OMG, isn't that sucks ?! Ok, in fact, I just asked around three times, and ya, I was using english when I'm talking, and that was with broken grammar and vocab [like now I wrote on my blog =p], and I don't think if my questions were that great, as they were talking about to all of the guardians. It makes me ashamed you know ?! Not because I'm proud, I just shamed. OK. And truthfully, I won't let myself in to that senior high school. That's not mean that I am not regretful with my own school, but my willing is in into Sinlui or P1 that you'all know, they have plentier experiences, famous name, and ya, great facilities with guarantee of brighten future. That's what I want, because I need that X factor to be a surgeon or you can say first, a doctor. I can't just go to my 'beloved' school, with a full scholarship and an extra crowd, bla bla bla, and hell, for the university, I got NOTHING! ZERO! That's pathetic man! So, wish me luck for the high school test around January, ok ;)
the brocure Week to week passed. And it will be the time [22nd December 2009] for me to take my middle record. I'm so nervous about it! Will I be the best ?! Will my scores great enough to be the cater to in into high school ?! And what is their opinion with my class's wall magazine [it talks about our dream school, wm shs] And the most serious thing is, I haven't taken my dancing test. Ya, all this time. And I just have one more shot, this Monday, if not, I don't know what my record will be :( I need to discuss it with my 'crew' ASAP! This is the real DO or DIE! =P
December is the end of the year. Time passed so fast, that you can't even feel it. Just wait few times, it'll be Christmas. What will you do on that religious moment ?! Spend your time with family ?! Go to the church ?! That's all based on yourself. Everybody have the different way to celebrate it. And for new year, what's your resolution ?! It'll be great if you have a resolution that can be your clue to spend a year of 2010 [and if you believe in doomsday on 2012, I'm sure your resolution will be greater than last year =p] And for me [myself], this is my new year resolution :
December is the end of the year. Time passed so fast, that you can't even feel it. Just wait few times, it'll be Christmas. What will you do on that religious moment ?! Spend your time with family ?! Go to the church ?! That's all based on yourself. Everybody have the different way to celebrate it. And for new year, what's your resolution ?! It'll be great if you have a resolution that can be your clue to spend a year of 2010 [and if you believe in doomsday on 2012, I'm sure your resolution will be greater than last year =p] And for me [myself], this is my new year resolution :
1. Success with all of my test
2. Transforms myself
3. In into Sinlui/P1 Senior High School
4. Be a better Aleena
5. Not lazy anymore
2. Transforms myself
3. In into Sinlui/P1 Senior High School
4. Be a better Aleena
5. Not lazy anymore
+ wish list : gadget! like laptop, new handphone [ I won't buy BB, eventhough all of peoples in this world are dying with it, I just said, I DON'T EVEN WANT THAT STUFF =P], iPod, bla bla bla [buy for me please =p]
Boring! That's all I can say. No longer, I'll get my holiday. Of course I love holiday. But I don't like if I must spend all of days at home, doing nothing, autis with my computer, autis with all of my dvds, and autis with my imagination. It'll be a long holidays man! I'll get my holiday start from 16th December until 6th January 2009. Great huh ?! =p Ya, eventhough my parents told me that they'll take their holiday, off from the office [but In fact, that now, I won't go nowhere, because my mom went to her office, LEMBUR! How great saturday night and weekend today is! -.-], but I'm not sure that they'll spend all of that times with vacation, maybe just another recess, sleep bla bla bla. Oh I hate it so bad! I want to go to the Singapore again! My mom asked me to accompany her to SG, but I'll be the translator of the doctor, and explain what the doctor says to my mom. Oh, WTH! I am not confidence with that! So, I refused it, eventhough in my little deep heart (weks =p), I want to go there again. I still not in to Singapore Flyer, go to new mall at Orchard called ION, and a lot of things that I want do there! Ohh -.-
I love to make myself busy! Here's my courses wishlist :
I love to make myself busy! Here's my courses wishlist :
# guitar and drum
# breakdance and hip hop
# driving
# taekwondo
# web design and graphic design
# basketball
# breakdance and hip hop
# driving
# taekwondo
# web design and graphic design
# basketball
Ahh, I wish I can have all of it :(
I want to shopping a lot! I have more than five hundred thousand in my wallet (muahahaha). I want to buy a lot of books [such as magazines, comics, novels, bla bla bla], clothes, a black nail coat, rebounding tools, bla bla bla!! Ahhh >< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"> I HAVE A SPORTS CAR! That doesn't even matter of the type (but usually I dream about Lamborghini and Ferrari). And I am being a famous photographer, that all of the pictures that I took are phenomenal. Aren't that insane ?! Hahaha. That's ok, that shows you that I'm a creative girl right ?! And of course, full of imagination =p
Ok, I've been talking too much today, wish you're not sick reading all of this sh*t, haha. Ok, so today's end here, and see ya! I'll write new post soon :)
I want to shopping a lot! I have more than five hundred thousand in my wallet (muahahaha). I want to buy a lot of books [such as magazines, comics, novels, bla bla bla], clothes, a black nail coat, rebounding tools, bla bla bla!! Ahhh >< style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"> I HAVE A SPORTS CAR! That doesn't even matter of the type (but usually I dream about Lamborghini and Ferrari). And I am being a famous photographer, that all of the pictures that I took are phenomenal. Aren't that insane ?! Hahaha. That's ok, that shows you that I'm a creative girl right ?! And of course, full of imagination =p
Ok, I've been talking too much today, wish you're not sick reading all of this sh*t, haha. Ok, so today's end here, and see ya! I'll write new post soon :)
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